some people like to celebrate. Everything. B-days, X-mass, Valentines day, independence day (all of them lol), anniversary... Anniversaries, oh, those are nice! First date anniversary, first kiss anniversary, first "i love you" anniversary, engagement anniversary... Its those happy moments u wanna keep and remember forever. Its like a proof to the world "how happy i am", "how happy we are" or "we are able to be happy"... " no, really.. look at us " lol

there is something magical about those events. Its a big self lie u HAVE to hold on, to make it all actually true. U believe u r happy-u feel happy-u are happy. for one day u are able to forget, that yesterday actually u were bored, u were unsatisfied of relationships u have.. that u hate how he farts, that her giggle annoys u... on this day u believe again that everything gonna be ok... that u love.. that u are loved. that u r together and that it has to mean something. something big like FATE, like FOREVER and ALLWAYS. for one day u remember all the promisses u gave and u have got. u cry happy tears and sometimes even help other think that nothing had change. isnt it magic? isnt it transformation? transformation of shit into bread (gold, if u wish)

and its beautiful

those small handles for tired people we call anniversaries... small handles to grab and hold on.. not to fall. To get rest and... go. together. hand in hand. into happy bullsh... i mean future

sometimes u get roses on the pillow in the morning. sometimes some of us mannage to forget, but... some of us know how to use it. everything is under control. if u have a BIG PLAN. lol

if u stop celebrating.. u start to die. i know it. ask me why? cause i had more relationships than Carrie Bradshaw pair of shoes i can smell from faaaaar away when its over. and usually it can still continue somehow... like dry flowers. and its ok, cause all u have to do is decide what u really want u can keep the dry flowers and collect new, fresh ones at the same time u can throw them away and search for fresh (but usually u already have them only dont know how to throw away those dry.. thinking maybe they can still be usefull?) OR u can enjoy having dry flowers, making nice bouquetes... nice quiet evenings... kisses into cheek "good night, honey", "good night, sweetheart"... it all depends

i never had dry relationships, but... im getting older who knows... who knows...

i wish i had only celebrations of "new love"... (take it like u want ) and no anniversaries... but im only human and also like to celebrate everything

"lets celebrate our first cheat, honey?", "oh... there has been more, suggar... havent i mentioned?" hahaha my imaginary goes wild oh, let it be ))

lots of love to u all!